small satori at work

Allows me to view others' lives though I don't exist in it, Excites me about far off instances of human experience in front of a plastic plate, Makes me yearn for a life I can't live even as I waste a life I have, This internet technology, how it turns gullible folks into perverts of a non existent world!

A handful of people as I hurriedly  enter the meditation hall; hot humid weather and crowded noisy roads, dramatically turns silent in the cool large hall. I bow and sit, settling into the lotus posture is easier than the focussed mind. 5.56 says the digital clock next to  the altar as the rhythm of breath evens and eyes shut. ...6.09 says the clock as the opened eyes regain focus, noises of cymbals and drums being arranged, voices muffled all around as the devotees gather for the evening prayer. I bow and leave. The road is same,  pleasant and peaceful as I walk out slowly...

Distance from the real person is required to both idolize or villanize a person The larger the distance, the more flexibility in building the image That's why dead are easily idolized or villanized, it eliminates the chances that they will 'live' and challenge the image While the living grow and change, dead are best suited to sustain our frozen images and static minds

someone calls and i can't take the call someone writes and i am unable to write back someone wants a time with me and i can't make the time not that i intend to put them off just that i am tied to earlier commitments and this will stretch my energies but too shy to say so, i resort to the easy, 'i am busy just now' excuse and then this happens once too often then people whose call i couldn't take, meet people whose mails i didn't respond to, and confer with the person i couldn't make time to meet and conclude that i am way too 'busy'! now, people don't call or write or want to meet as they know i am 'busy' and when i reach out seeking to catch up with a friend or wanting to share something, all that i get to hear is 'but, i thought you were busy'!!